Still Not Knitting

I've been miserable at my job for the last 2 weeks.   Which has turned me into an angry, non-knitting Nicole.  Of course, this is not good.  I've been blowing up at Michael over stupid, little things and I haven't been able to productively do ANYTHING during the week.

For the first time in a looong time (since October of 2004) I woke up this morning and wanted to burst into tears at the thought of logging in to work.  Obviously something has to change.

I'm not looking for a new job yet.   Instead I've decided to try to change my role at work and to change the level of how much I care what gets done.  Basically I'm done with trying to speak up, of being talked over, and I'm certainly done with picking up other people's slack.   I'm REALLY done with other people taking credit for what I've done (not so much taking credit away from me but saying "Nicole and I did this" when I did EVERYTHING).  Basically I will finish my tasks as they are assigned but I am not at all invested in this project anymore.

Besides work everything is going super wonderful!   We did a lot of fun things this weekend and were productive at the same time.

We bought my wedding ring!  Our jeweler was having a massive sale and we got a really good deal on my ring.

Michael's ring, my engagement ring, and my wedding ring.   Sorry that my fingers look chunky, I was retaining water this weekend.

We also looked at some houses.   We're not moving anytime soon but it's fun to go out and look!  And we stopped by Ikea to grab some closet containers and frames.  And we saw Angels and Demons, which I thought was better than The Davinci Code.   I haven't read either of the books though so take my opinion with a grain of salt.

So that's my life in a nutshell.   During the week: stressful meetings, no knitting, crying and yelling.   Weekends: super fun time and wedding productivity!   But it all changes today.  I will make my weekdays fun and productive and calm.  Work can go fall off a cliff for all I care.

Comments

[Beverly]

I'm so sorry work is sucking. I know how draining that can be. Hopefully things will get better soon.

[Ragged Around The Edges]

Sorry work is so tough. I can recall times when I just wanted to burst into tears at the thought of work and it's no fun. Turn to how happy your personal life is. . . in that long run that's all that matters. Hang in there.

[mai]

i'm so sorry work has been so awful. i feel the same way fairly often, which sucks. and house hunting? fun!

[Jenna]

Your rings are gorgeous! Hopefully looking at them will help perk you up when work is craptastic.